After capturing the blue depth effect with my outside lights yesterday, I couldn’t wait to get out there and do it again in an attempt to capture conviction in disbelief and disbelief in conviction.
Both conviction and disbelief have multiple meanings. Conviction being about belief but also guilt, or being found guilty, and disbelief being the inability or refusal to believe and also amazement and astonishment. Conviction makes me think of vertical lines in a box. So I started with that simple concept. Then to put a little disbelief in my conviction, I added a thin copper wires to the center two openings.
2023 November PAD Chapbook Challenge: Day 6
Today’s prompt is a title prompt: Better (blank).
Better Conviction Than Disbelief
or better disbelief than conviction?
Both choose security over grief
Both will reject uncomfortable thoughts
Better conviction than disbelief
when promoting that you are always right
and putting free thought on restriction
but when fed delusions forced as truths
Better disbelief than conviction
when finding questions in every answer
and more research doesn’t bring relief
but deep in your gut you don’t need more proof
Better conviction than disbelief
unless only using easy ways out
and running is the same as friction
then there is no answer to which one is
Better: conviction or disbelief.
Yesterday, was the first day that the words weren’t the priority. I got a special visit from my niece and got to help with some sewing and a college essay, so by the time I was ready to work on my novel, I was tired. I was glad that the NaNoWriMo write-in was recorded, sure it would inspire my words on the page, but sadly, it only pulled about three hundred words out of me. It was only when I stopped trying to generate new scenes, and went back to my story I had written so far chronologically that the words began to flow. I think I’ve gotten to the point where I have enough ideas that I want to see the story unfold. Though that doesn’t mean I won’t try writing an ending first.
I played around with writing in present tense yesterday, and I kept slipping into past tense as I got into the flow. If I do decide that this novel wants to be in present tense, that will have to be part of revision, because I would be revising a ton of past tense passages anyway.
Part of the personal reward system I’m trying out is I get one word from a magnetic poetry kit for each one hundred words written, and one for each morning page written. Here is the poem from this first week:
That last line off to the right is the unused words. I used the Mustache Poet kit as you can see. I may need to come up with some big goals to reward myself some new magnetic poetry kits (amazon assoc. link). There are so many that look fun. Though it may be time to finally get the Original edition (amazon assoc. link), and/or the supplemental The Poet edition (amazon assoc. link).
Today is the Global Write-in Crawl closing event (noon Pacific time) but other than that I’m going to motivate myself playing Clue. I found a Clue the movie word crawl and I found the 2013 modernized version of the Clue board game (amazon assoc. link) at my local Goodwill (it has both the original mansion mystery, and a beach boardwalk mystery when you flip the board over), so I thought I would try to combine them to have fun while really getting into my novel today.
Experience Writing 