These are my responses to the final Writober prompt post Fear of Death.
OctPoWriMo
Living With Fear of Death
Color of the distant object deceives
The slice of cloud dismembered from the sky
becomes filthy while falling and floating by
The dead end road ends abruptly
I can’t taste the poison but it’s there
I will never hear his voice and not feel disgust
texture is often more important than taste
I will hear my inner music again
Everything changes if I use a filter
I will witness transformation through chopping
Trauma lingers like an underlying hum
I will follow him if he’s prowling
and wonder why now? Why did it take so long?
I will witness a changed world if I live
pressure like a flame thrower at my back
I will touch my lips as I think about what I will touch
Writober Flash Fiction
I felt called, as if I could walk across the water to the giant pushing on the sky. It was a cold day, the day he came. I pulled on my long wool coat, for my morning walk along the beach. I slipped out before she woke up. I had a lot to contemplate. She had made up her mind without saying a word. She was taking the job, moving to Jackson Hole. So far from the ocean I loved. We either split up, or I went with her. There were no other choices. I couldn’t be that angry at her for not consulting me. I hadn’t told her about my cancer diagnosis. I don’t know why, but I didn’t feel it was any of her business.
I was kicking at the wet sand, watching the ocean’s furthest reach fill up my divots when I felt pushed, and almost fell over. It wasn’t the wind: there wasn’t even a hint of a breeze. No, it was like the air over the ocean was forced into me. I turned expecting a tidal wave on the horizon to explain it, but instead saw a giant shadow pushing against the sky, as if someone a thousand times as big as me was backlit onto a sky curtain and was trying to push through. I felt surprisingly calm, no fear at all. I took this as the third choice I had been wishing for. No moving, no staying, just walk across the water to the giant in the sky and accept whatever comes. But the ocean didn’t hold me. I probably should have taken off my heavy coat.
Halloween Photography Challenge
Today’s images are a celebration of completing my Halloween decoration Sewtober challenge. The photo represents fighting the fear of death with beautiful light.
Sewtober
I really pushed myself hard and completed my vision of a glowing fabricglass
3-D pumpkin for Halloween. Fabricglass is a layering, sewing, and cutting technique I invented using spandex fabrics to create a stained glass effect. I had some rope lights sitting in my closet from when I made light boxes, and coiling a strand inside worked perfectly to give it a warm glow. I’m so happy with my finished pumpkin. Thank you being my accountablibuddies and inspiring me to finish my project.
Experience Writing 